2.3.09

So this is my first blog entry. I'm officially a blogger. I started this because I'm at my parents house for an unfortunate purpose and I need an escape. I drove to Lenoir City, TN this morning to spend 3 days at my parents house. The reason? My grandfather's life is slowly ending. In December Claudie was diagnosed with stomach cancer and its been a quick progression to our family's current reality. We're all just hanging out and waiting. Sometimes we talk about it, but most of the time things feel pretty normal. I cried for the first hour that I was home today. The house felt very dark and sad. I felt very overwhelmed by the circumstances. I kept praying, "Lord, I don't think I can handle all of this". And then a wise man said, "of course you can't because we're not supposed to be able to handle these things on our own". I started thinking about that. God hasn't required me to walk through all of this with my own strength. "No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful. He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it." But His strength is of no value to me if I don't trust that He is enough and that He is near. So I will try to trust in the Lord during this difficult time. May Christ be glorified during all of this.